"Winter Why's?"

     I should be in the joy's of life, instead I'm stuck in my 'Winter Why's?'
As in,
Why is this happening to me?
Why, no matter how hard I try, can't I change it?
Why am I letting them make me so unhappy?
Why can't the snow melt, so I can go where I can best deal with life?
Why can't the mountains and canyons be closer and easier to get to?
Why can't it be about me for once?
Why doesn't it feel like he loves me?
Why doesn't he think about me ahead of himself?
Why do things have to be so hard... all the time?
Why can't I just be happy?
Why?